There’s so much change in the air. Can you feel it? Whether it’s a change of season or something even bigger, sometimes I feel like Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz, caught up in that whirlwind. At the moment we’re juggling work at Halls Haven in the Grampians whilst simultaneously clearing our home back in Melbourne. Since we made the decision to sell back in June, it’s like the Universe has conspired to rush everything along
Our decision to sell, the way it happened so quickly and the settlement date of 11.11 feels synchronistic. The date also coincides with our son’s final Uni exams and his need to find somewhere new to live. So, we’re not just moving out and relocating all our furniture to a storage container but we’re also trying to find him a suitable place to live.
It’s been an emotional journey. I’m excited yet I’d be lying if I said I haven’t had sleepless nights and shed a few tears about what we’re leaving behind. There’s so much involved in letting go, not just of the physical and material, but the stability of a predictable lifestyle. But do I regret our decision? Absolutely not. As someone once said, “happiness has more than one address.”
When you feel the Universe guiding you in a certain direction, somehow all the small details and moments of worry become merely steps that propel us forward. The clearing out, the getting dirty, both physically and metaphorically, it’s all part of the process.
I listened to Lorrie Ladd the other day and she spoke about how important it is to be real to ourself, not to deny our feelings, or pretend everything is perfect. She spoke about “getting dirty”. In her words …
Deep Shit or Sheer Bliss – It’s all how you look at it
“You can see the reflection of the sunrise on the lake.” said hubby to me recently, looking outside our van window. It’s actually a septic hole that has to be filled, but that’s Doug’s warped sense of humour. It’s true though, isn’t it? Everything is about the way we look at things. And where we focus our attention.
On the same morning, looking out the other side of the van, came this fleeting and magical gift from Mother Nature.
I love these views from our van and I’ve also grown to love the travel to and from here. It’s just over three hours in the car, enough time to relax, daydream, chat and watch the world go by. It’s like a bridge and a space between two scenarios which are all playing out.
Keeping the Home Fires Burning
Is ‘Home’ just a word or is it something you carry within you?
Where is home these days? For me it’s wherever I lay my hat, as the song goes. It’s where we happily raised our kids, in a red brick house that’s slowly being emptied and where, out the back paddock, the kids had so much fun when they were younger. More recently we had a bonfire, burning off the old.
Home is our van, which is part of our present and future. It’s a comfortable haven with everything we need in it.
It’s in the car, travelling between two places, a space that gives us time to catch our breath. Home is being with people we love. It’s laughter, and connection when hearts align.
Home is where the heart lives. Home is where you are in every moment.
“Nature, time and patience are the three great physicians.”
Last week we had a health scare when Doug woke up early one morning, delirious with pain. “I don’t feel good” he said, as he passed out on me. What followed was an intense 24 hours as I rushed him into the Emergency department of the Austin Hospital where I had to leave him and then wait to hear what was going on.
We were due back at work that day, had packing boxes strewn around the house and our plans were in disarray, but my main concern was him.
I did what I had to do and then waited, trusted, surrendered and prayed. The next day news came and it wasn’t too serious, thank goodness. Tests showed the cause of the pain (a kidney stone) and he was home that afternoon. The stone has mostly passed through but hasn’t come out fully. But at least now he has pain relieving drugs and he’ll be more prepared. Everything passes, the good and the not so good, literally.
Cleansing on a Global Scale
Sometimes I feel like the overhaul of our house and what can happen to our physical bodies is similar to what’s happening on the planet. Every room is being cleared out, everything is coming out of the closet, EVERYTHING. There’s so much going on if we look beyond the distractions. Amongst it all so many things we barely recognise are surfacing. What a tumultuous and incredible time we’re living in. Do you sense the changes and the newness that’s coming?
It’s my birthday soon, on the 25th of September, and I’m fortunate to be spending it at home. I AM so grateful for another year around the sun. When I look back over the past 12 months I see what’s possible when we take a leap of faith, when we step out of our comfort zone and trust in the unknown and when we live from our heart and trust our intuition. I feel blessed.
It’s my intention to continue to follow the path I’m on, even though I don’t know where it’s leading! I’ll continue to share my journey and perhaps I’ll inspire a few people to follow their own dreams along the way.
“Wherever you go, go with all your heart” said Confucius. And so it is. Life expands when we’re willing to embrace uncertainty in pursuit of new opportunities.
From my heart to yours, I wish you all peace, patience and loving energy to contemplate the bigger picture. And to envisage a future that’s full of magic, mystery, possibility and wonder. Because it’s there and it’s waiting for us.