Going with the Flow

I woke up on the first day of this month feeling more positive than I have for a long time. Feeling a spark that’s eluded me for a while.

When I look back on the last year I realise I’ve had few goals and visions. I’ve been existing, coping, reacting, going with the flow with no clear direction and purpose. I realise it’s been about surviving.

As the year draws to a close I’m feeling a change, like there’s finally space for newness.

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This year has been one of the hardest in my life and yet  I feel, for the first time in a long while, like things are shifting.

It seemed appropriate as Frank’s Tuesday Photo theme this week was flow. That’s how I’ve been feeling.

Gong with the flow, sometimes not knowing which way the river is flowing, sometimes fighting it and not quite understanding what’s blocking me.

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We all face challenges in our lives.  Sometimes it feels like we can barely keep our head above water. Sometimes it feels as though the flow is too fast and we can’t keep up with it but I know that to keep going we have to go with the tide.

Easier said than done but sometimes we have no choice.  We just have to hold on, grab on to anything and not let go.

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It takes courage to take chances, risks, not knowing what’s around the corner, what obstacles we might face. Fear is our worst enemy. It’s been mine, I’ve said it before. I’ll admit it again but it’s suffocating and I’m tired of it.

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I spent last Friday  with my sister, driving to Sale, to our old home,  in what felt like a Thelma and Louise road journey , revisiting our upbringing, talking about our memories and how the past two years have changed us.

About how we need to move on with our lives. To create a future that does justice to the legacy that mum left us.

Sometimes we can sit and ponder. Think too much, over analyse. That’s me.

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But eventually I know I have to take a chance, dive in and live again.

And I’d like to think that even if I flounder it won’t be the end of the world.

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Maybe I’ll even be able to laugh at myself and it will be smooth going again.

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I feel as though this month is all about moving into flow and thinking about what’s coming next.

About reconnecting with our heart’s purpose and rediscovering ourself.

I hope that as December unfolds we can all feel that sense of possibility and that anything is possible.

May we all see all the positive things that are on the horizon, the hope that’s around the corner.

It’s there, all we have to do is believe it and embrace it. 

May abundance, love, peace and good wine flow.

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Happy December, my beautiful blogging friends.

In response to Frank’s Tuesday Photo Challenge: Flow

 


97 thoughts on “Going with the Flow

  1. Miriam, this is lovely! As I read this post, I reflected on how some endings proceed new beginnings. I feel the hope and potential for new beginnings. And these things are all part of the process. I know a little of what you’ve been through this year and I don’t feel from my vantage point that this was a year where it would have been good to have a lot of goals. I believe you’d have set yourself up for failure had you been aggressive in this area of goal setting.
    Love and warm hugs to you, my dear friend! ❤️

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    1. I think you’re right Tiffany. Setting goals most likely would have ended in failure and/or disappointment this year. It’s still slow going but I know I can push forward, I feel a sense of hope and movement, like the wheels are finally starting to turn again. Hope you’re also feeling a sense of optimism, big hugs back my friend. xo

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    1. Don’t envy them Sandra. They’re still coupled with persistent self-doubts and confusion, I’m just choosing to push past them and not let them overwhelm me. I know how hard it is but I wish the same for you.

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      1. Well… then I envy your ability to push past them! And I envy that you have the power to choose, too! Oh, everyone will say I have that power, too… but I don’t. Every day I wake up and decide, “today will be better than yesterday,” but it never is…

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        1. But at least you’re thinking that! See, you can choose a different attitude, even if your circumstances suck and everything feels the same. Things will change, they won’t be like this forever. Just don’t give up Sandra …

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  2. A lovely post Miriam and going with the flow is truly that. There is no timescale for when anyone ‘ought’to move on and it is important to follow your own rhythm and give yourself all the time you need. Everything will be all right and a very happy December to you too 💖

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    1. You’re right about the timescale Xenia. It’s different for everyone I guess. Just happy to be moving forward though I know there’ll still be those backward days as well. Have a happy month ahead.

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  3. A beautiful and honest post Miriam. You’re right fear is such a hard barrier to break through and we need to dig deep to find that courage… This year has definitely been a year of awakening and I’m at a point where I want to get out of ‘limbo’ and start living life and having fun.. 2017 is going to be that year for us both… I feel it in the ‘water’!! Angel blessings and a big hug sent with ‘hope for a brilliant future’ for you! x

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    1. Yay to getting out of limbo and living again Wendy. I feel it in the air too. Here’s to a brighter 2017, full of happiness, fun and laughter, for both of us. A big hug back to you my dear friend xo

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  4. Oh, Miriam. Your words always resonate, and I do wholeheartedly hope that this month, and the coming year, bring you a renewed sense of momentum. You are right – if we can feel ‘room for newness’, it is time to move again – somehow, in one direction or another. Wishing you the best!

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        1. Extremes indeed. I think everyone should travel to the exact opposite part of the world at some point in their life. I think we would have fewer global miscomnunications. Plus, summer in July when you’re used to sweaters and chills, or summer in December when – as we have been here today – you’re typically whipped by snow squalls? How awesome is that?! 🙂 Enjoy your weekend.

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        2. Oh I love your comment! And I think you’re so right. If we were all able to step out of our own world and see life differently it would definitely open our eyes. And make us all more tolerant and accepting of each other.
          Have a happy weekend yourself Nadia.

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  5. I’m so glad you are starting to feel a reawakening, Miriam! It’s been a very tough year for you, and I love how honest you are about what you are going through and how you are struggling to move forward. I think that helps so many others who are also often paralyzed by fear or feeling stagnant…knowing that we aren’t the only one who feels that way is very affirming. I don’t think there is any set schedule on grieving and moving forward, only our heart can tell us when it is time. Just keep listening to your heart, and you’ll be on the right path.

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    1. Thanks Ann, I know you’re right. Sometimes I feel guilty though because I feel so stuck and really have no excuse not to be moving forward again but it’s hard. I guess I just need to be kind to myself and let things happen as they will. As you said. follow my heart. I’m sure there are many other people going through the same thing. Thank you, as always, for your support and friendship Ann, I really do appreciate it.

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  6. Oh Miriam, I love this! Sending you many hugs of unconditional loving and blessings, blessings, blessings! I see you as so courageous, wise, and full of caring. Many good wishes to you, to your sister, and to your opening heart, my friend. Love, Debbie ❤

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        1. It happens doesn’t it. To all of us. 😊 I feel as though we’ve had the best catch up though, like you’ve just landed on my doorstep after not having seen each other for ages and then shared the biggest catch up. And they’re the best sort. Lots of hugs and laughter, cries and tears through smiles and of course tea and cake. Now that’s a good catch up. 😊❤️🍰☕️

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