I’m the one that gets your heart racing,
I’m the one that makes your body tingle,
I’m the one that consumes you at night,
I’m the one that gets inside your head,
I’m the one constantly beside you in bed.
A love affair or a battle with my over active racing thoughts?
In my quest to be mindful this month I’m also owning a lot of feelings that I’ve suppressed.
I haven’t had a full blown panic attack in a long time but sometimes I feel it there, close by. Ready to rear its ugly head without the slightest provocation. And in the most unlikeliest of places. Like the supermarket. Sitting on the couch. My bed, lying awake in the middle of the night. Even driving in the car it has the ability to hit me, so often without warning. Sometimes it feels like it’s just underneath the surface.
Sometimes I feel like the proverbial duck. You know the one, it appears calm on the surface but underneath it’s paddling like crazy to stay afloat. I start sweating, the palpitations come and I feel breathless, my legs turn to jelly and then crazy thoughts start racing through my head.
But this little duck is getting better. Most of the time when the waters start getting choppy I know what to do. Breath. Deeply. Slowly from deep inside. I try to just go with the flow and accept it, knowing it will pass. And gradually it does.
What keeps me grounded is bringing my thoughts back to the present. Back to the now and what’s right in front of me. Dealing with that and nothing else.
It reminds me of a quote in my Gratitude Journal the other day. “Acknowledging the good that you already have in your life is the foundation for all abundance” … Eckhart Tolle
I think back to some of the simple things that I enjoyed today:
- The sun on my back as I walked Harry this morning
- Autumn sunshine and balmy wind that dried our clothes
- Rainbow Lorikeets flitting around in a tree in our backyard
- Brilliant blue skies
- Chrysanthemums in my garden. Blooming just in time for Mothers Day
I hope that your day is filled with simple pleasures and you’re able to find joy in the ordinary things. May you all enjoy the journey. And keep those little black ducks at bay!
Hopefully we can all try and be a bit more mindful as we march into May.
Very nice post. I think many of us can relate to the anxious feelings lurking close by, and your reminder to think of simple pleasures is excellent advice for all.
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Thank you.
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Great post Miriam.
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Thanks Louise. Have a great weekend.
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Can totally relate to this post! When I’m feeling anxious…I go on long walks, write, meditate/pray and most of the times surround myself in nature to feel present and mindful and release what I’m holding inside. Great advice! Bernice
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Hey Bernice, yes I agree, being in nature is very therapeutic.
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A beautiful and positive post! So glad to have read it this fine morning!
I can totally relate to the feelings you have mentioned here….including the panic attacks!
The fact that you are reminding yourself of the simple pleasures in life shows a great deal of strength.
So happy to have you as my blogging buddy! 🙂
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Thanks so much Rashmi, I feel the same way. Have a great Friday and an amazing weekend. 🙂
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You too! Have an awesome weekend 🙂
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Lovely post, and so encouraging. Good for you to focus on what’s at hand. You do live in a wonderful part of the world.
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Thanks Wendy, that I do. Have a wonderful weekend.
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Happy Mothers Day!
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And to you too!
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Some days I feel like I’ve got a little “panic attack” monster inside my head knocking against my skull trying to get out. Usually, distraction keeps the monster at bay… usually. This is one of the times music helps me… I focus on just what I’m listening to — outside my head, not inside! I hope you have a lovely, peaceful weekend!
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Music helps me too. Loud music that I sing along to in the car and then sometimes inside the house mellow music, depending on my mood. Definitely helps! Hope you have a lovely weekend as well Sandra. xo
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Thanks! If only the rain would stop…I could use one of those windows-down, loud-singing drives right now! One of my favorite things to do!
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We could be like Thelma and Louise! 🙂
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Except for the driving of the cliff part, right? 🙂 (Oh… spoiler alert! Haha!)
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Yeah, we’ll skip that bit! 🙂
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What a beautiful post. A good one for your mindful theme. Love the photos, Meme. and your thoughts. Thank you for sharing this.
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It’s my pleasure Andrew. I’m glad you enjoyed it.
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Wow. That photo of the flower was pretty surreal. And you are so true about enjoying the little pleasures in life Miriam 🙂 I guess now that you have come to terms about what is bothering you and found the ways also to overcome that, things should take a positive turn. And the weekend is here too 🙂 Have fun and take care dear ❤
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Thanks Minaxi, you have a wonderful weekend as well. 🙂
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Life sure has a way of trying to control us. Sometimes we can overcome, sometimes not. Forever the pressure to conform, commit. You know your release, live it every day!
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Thanks for that. You have a great weekend coming up.
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Your flower is amazing! What a perfect gift for you!
I am praying for you dear heart. Anxiety is a rough thing to struggle with, and those panic feelings can be so scary. Good for you for learning how to control the attacks. You go girl, and kick their butts! Show them who’s boss! And know that I am here cheering for you. *hugs* ❤
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You are gorgeous, thank you Ness! And as for that beautiful flower, it’s going to be picked tomorrow … for my mum. 🙂 Have a wonderful weekend.
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You have a lovely weekend too, lovely lady! *hugs* ❤
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Thanks Ness I’m at my in laws sneaking in some catch up WP time! 🙂
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Definitely think you will like yoga. I get panic attacks too and the mindfulness and breathing in yoga has helped me a few times for “losing it”.
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I think you’re right Kris. Zumba does it for me too, I find I lose myself in the energy and the music.
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Your chrysanthemum is beautiful. I hope your weekend is peaceful and happy.
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Thank you. I hope yours is as well.
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Gorgeous mum. Have a great weekend!
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May your peace win through
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Great post! When I read it, I thought of Eckhart Tolle and a story he told about ducks in a pond (http://www.tolleteachings.com/duck-with-a-human-mind.html) Sending lots of love ❤
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Thanks Marie, what an awesome story, love it! 🙂
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So glad to hear 🙂
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Well said!
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Thanks!
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Beautiful,touching,powerful and real.Just how I like it.
I,too,love taking notice of those small things that we may or may not take for granted,but which truly define and are part of our lives.It is outstandingly satifactying knowing that the real blessings of life come within the simplest of things.I do not want to take these for granted.Not now,not ever.
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Another beautiful post! I’m glad you’re learning ways to cope with the panic attacks and that they are coming far less often. I think you are right on target with being mindful of the beauty and abundance that is right in front of all of us. Wishing you nothing but the best, always.
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Thanks Ann, appreciate your kind words.
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Such a lovely post- this really is the way things are- sometimes so hard, but with lots of underlying beauty.
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So very true Chez, thanks!
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Breathing definitely helps. Green tea and meditation too. I like long walks that help clear my head. All said, I know it’s not easy. Hope you’re doing better, Miriam.
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I’m doing fine, thanks Cheryl. Hope you’ve had a great weekend. 🙂
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I did! Incredibly busy though as it was holiday time in Seoul. Loads of festivities and celebrations. 🙂 Have a good week! 🙂
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Sounds great. Hope you have a good week yourself. 🙂
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Anxiety is a natural way to show that we need to rest, rest our thoughts, rest our body,…. nature is a great way for us to feel ressourful again…
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It absolutely is, couldn’t agree more Maja … xo
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Love this honest post and it’s very helpful. I also find the simplicity of saying ‘let go’ and releasing those rigid shoulders a great help at times like this too! x
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So true Ross. It’s amazing how often our shoulders get so rigid! Thank you. x
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