When I flipped the calendar onto April this morning the quote down the bottom caught my eye: “The Greatest thing in the world is not so much where we stand, as in what direction we are moving.” Johan Wolfgang Von Goefth
How true. When standing still we feel as though we’re not getting anywhere. That’s me lately. As though I’ve lost my sense of direction.
I’m a thinker, always looking, trying to capture the moment. My days, once so routine when I held an office job, now seem all over the place. The freelance work is ongoing but along with my copy writing work it’s sporadic. The kids are growing up, they’re on school holidays and don’t seem to need me as much. I should be more relaxed but there are days when I feel like I’ve lost my purpose.
Some days I feel as though I’m walking on quicksand. As though any minute I’ll go under as my footing is no longer sure. I wonder if it’s a stage of life.
Sometimes I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. Not knowing which way is which. Or how I’m meant to find my way out.
But then I think of my mum. Of how I can drop in to see her whenever I want. I can be with her when she has specialist appointments. I can drop everything and go to her.
And I realise that maybe things are just how they’re meant to be. How maybe the fact that I didn’t get one of the many job interviews I went for last year was because I was meant to be home so that I could see her. So that she could have hope in seeing her family when there’s little other hope and meaning in her life.
I realise that I am moving forward. In the direction where I’m most needed. At this point in time anyway. We are all ultimately in the place where we’re meant to be.
With the people that need us. My mum, my family. Walking into the light.
This is me with my daughter in the car that we picked up for her last week. Her first car. I can’t believe my baby girl is going to be driving this beast. She was so excited.
I look back and reflect on all that’s gone but I’ve realised the only way ahead is to go with the flow. To accept what is and move forward. I guess that’s what we’re all doing. All of us and everyday. Maybe I have found my purpose after all. And I am right where I’m meant to be.
Wishing you all safe travels and wise decisions as we move forward on our journey through a purpose filled life.