Thoughts of you consume me
your touch electrifies sending me higher
the sparks intensify
until it ignites a blazing fire.
Passion and desire was aflame years ago when hubby and I met, an all-consuming fire that, over the years, has waned down to something resembling camp fire embers.
Even though the flames have subsided the spark has always remained and turned into something much more tangible – something that I’m hoping will last a lifetime. The warmth of a fireplace and the sanctuary of home.
When you’ve been married for 23 years and together for more than half your life you get used to that person always being there. Three days ago hubby left for another work trip, half way across the country for five days. I’ve had to adjust to lots of time apart as he travels in his new job. So the fuel and attention to the fireplace is a bit low at the moment.
I feel the gap when he’s not around – the way he walks in and scruffs up the dog before coming down the stairs for a hug and a beer, conversations over dinner and a glass or two of wine, the banter and laughter we enjoy, the way he cheers me up when I’m feeling down, even the way he comes up behind me and pinches my butt.
BUT I also have the bed to myself and can stay up late reading. I don’t have his loud snoring in my ear and I get to eat more of my favorite dark Lindt chocolate.
And I know it’s important, and healthy, to have time apart. To do our own thing. I’ve spoken to a good friend on the phone, I’ve played my guitar, been out in the garden and pulled out weeds, I’ve taken my son to the library, done some writing and visited my mum. I’ve always been comfortable in my own company and feel at peace in myself.
BUT I’ll be glad when he’s home. The house is a bit too quiet. Plus he makes the best Thai green curry and I miss his back rubs. And his laughter, my best friend who I’m traveling this road of life with.
May you always keep the wood in the fire, the love in your relationships and the home fires burning.
Wishing you all love and happiness on the journey, no matter where the roads lead you.